June

Sorry I haven't been posting much I've been really caught up with work.
But well it's June!!!!!

These days been so tiring and this is the first time in my life that I ever slept later than 1am.
I didn't even do this during my Os period the latest I slept then was prolly like 1230?
Now my record is like what sleeping at 3am it's gna kill me sooner or later sigh.

Anyway a quick update here.

Yokekay came over to NP to help me out with my choreography today.
Am I ever so glad to see her again.
Completed my choreography with much much much help from Yokekay.
It feels so good to be dancing barefooted again. (:

Dinz w her was just great, caught up with her.
Made me realise how much I miss Nanhua and it felt so good to be letting everything out to her and also knowing how she's been.
Everything felt so comfortable.
I wanna visit my second home soon. ):

Am really thankful for her for always always being there for me, coming down all the way to NP tho she was so tired.
If you're reading this babe, I just wna say I appreciate you so much & I'm so thankful for you.

 

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Life in ABM is gradually made bearable with the wonderful people in it. 

Thankful thankful thankful for everything I have. 

Attended Dialogue In the Dark on 31st May where we got to experience everything using all our senses but sight.

The darkness was pretty overwhelming and it was completely dark, where the darkness in opening and closing your eyes is exactly the same. 

It was a pretty scary thing at first, but it made me realise how much I actually depended on my sight. 

Like so many things we take for granted it scares me sometimes. 

Anyway, yeah. Gotta constantly remind myself about the blessings i have everyday.

(:

Btw, here's a GIF ripped from Tumblr which i think is so perfect. 

This is so perfect. 

Aye, bye!!!

& ALL THE BEST TO THE STUDENTS TAKING COMMON TESTS TOMORROW. ♥♥♥♥♥

Suffocating

Sudden wave of emotions & I feel so shitty & overwhelmed.

I feel like I've become a whole new different person it's like I wna scream & be heard but I'm afraid I'm just gna be ignored so maybe everything inside just gets forgotten until idk what really matters anymore.

But here's the thing, nobody really gives a shit whether you're unhappy or not. So you might as well be happy.

Really quite upset by the fact that the amount of things I've to complete is weighing my heart & mind down that idek how to like rest? Ok idk what I'm saying it's all bullshit thoughts now. It's supposed to be something I enjoy doing but it's draining me out badly everyday.

I feel like I've changed, I feel like I've lost most of the zest within me & I've become so much quieter these days. I hate who I am now. I don't even recognise who I am anymore.

I'm so scared so tired I just want to. Break free of all these for a bit.

But it seems like there's nowhere for me to run to.

In any case, I gotta keep my head up & keep fighting. And of course continuously count my blessings.

Lord I need You.

Bits & pieces

Time now's 0055 & I'm still awake.
:/

Anw just some thoughts on my mind.
So this post is gonna be really disorganised kay hmm forgive me.

I've always wondered how different things would be like if I decided to go to a JC back then.
What would the people there be like?
What's it like to attend a lecture?
How is the environment there?

Not that I'm regretting going to NP, after all I've met so many amazing & wonderful people that made life there enjoyable.

& I absolutely hate it when people compare JC workload with Poly's.
You don't know the amount of things we have to do too.
#justsaying

I miss dance, so much.
Been thinking whether to try out a new type of dance but it just doesn't feel right. Maybe it's good for the experience but idw to lose touch with Chinese Dance.
Noticed many signs around me telling me to go on & try new things but the more I don't feel right.

I just wna go back to dancing with 邹老师.

Goodnight y'all, long day ahead.

A special, priceless kind of love.

Omg hai sorry I haven't blogged in eons.
Been really busy with all the assignments, projects & shows.
Really didn't think that ABM would be so so so so busy.
Endless number of places to visit, concerts to attends, essays to write, posters / newsletters to design & all.
Hardly have time to catch my breath. :/

Okay today's Vesak Day, a public holiday.
The very one day that everybody in my family was free for dinner.
Had a proper dinner with my family at a restaurant & it got me thinking about how much I haven't been spending enough time with them.

I am guilty uh.
Was texting on my phone today while my mom was talking to me, I think she got a little frustrated then said "Can you stop looking at your phone for once & look at me when I talk to you?"

Instant guilt tripped.

During dinner, we exchanged our daily happenings in life & I realised how much I haven't been talking to my family.
It was a nice, warm feeling. :')
Been coming home really late & all due to projects & to put things in blunt terms, home was like merely a hotel where I slept in every night & nothing else.
Hardly communicated with any of my family members.

But I want to try to change things.
I think I'll prolly start with putting down my phone & make eye contact with any of my family members when they're talking to me, especially when my grandma's talking to me.

It's the little things they do for you that shows how much they care for you & love you.
Don't take them for granted. :')

 

  

Thank you grandma, dad, mom, bro & sis for everything i am today.
:')